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If All Else Fails (Cry and Cry Again)

by Filthy Liars

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1.
Flight Risk 02:07
Save it for another time, when you can care wind stings your face like a time, when you could care disconnected from, grasp for notions you once held so dear working once again, for something far away from here When you tell me that you empathize I feel no peace in my mind I don't want to you to know what this is like I want you to tell me that I'm fucked up so I know I'm in a hole not a plateau I can't climb out of Tell me what are we suffering for? meant to live for so much more, if we could navigate this fear I know safeties an illusion, I don't claim to believe otherwise I'm just trying to up the odds by cutting scum like you from my life if exile's not an option, tell me why are you running? from the inclusivity you pushed us from, did you see that coming? It's hard to prioritize way down at the bottom when you fight whatever clouds your eyes, problems I got em tell me what it's like up there with all of your choices but don't tell me to pick my battles cuz if I could fucking choose I wouldn't have them
2.
Wait a fucking second, suddenly will power is not enough? I have been told since I could be told/that if I flied right and straightened up, I would be alright. Now you wanna get clinical with me? Cuz I did everything I was supposed to do and what the fuck did that get me? Who cut my wick? Who shot my nerves? Who's gunna fix it cuz I never learned. Repeat yourself, it gets me every time. I am so so stuck, so so stuck in my mind. Ignore me, yeah pay me no mind. These problems they are not yours they are mine, and mine alone. It's funny to think I was deluded enough to feel like I was a cis boy 'til you fucked it up. Use whatever pronouns, you can't abuse me now please excuse me while I down another mickey to forget myself, and everyone else. You'll watch me drown cuz I won't ask for help out of sight, out of body out of mind, out of body out of body, out of body, get me out of this body. Pre chorus Chorus And I hold on so tightly, cuz most times I cannot see I'm just grasping at sharp objects pretending that they feel soft to me you grabbed my wrist and pulled my blindfold free showed me what I held and all the blood I thought I'd cleaned lets do this together you mean so much to me no you are not a defect you are the most beautiful thing I could never conceive
3.
When your eyes first opened you were complete built like a sieve with a sponge and some DMT fill me up corrupt me with things I didn't ever need trivial nature, imposed by those who can't see Copy cat copy cat, where'd you get all those lives? And as you forget your heart compartmentalized You cried when the keys scattered cross the 7 seas spend your life searching without clues or room to breathe Aging and desperate you ache for fleeting peace and every fall you find one of the keys to your heart It's a puzzle that takes you months to solve just to watch the parts scatter the continent and what's the point if I don't have a soul left to take when this is all done? So why can't I just get out now? Every morning I am born again into a world I don't want to participate in naked and crying and done before I begin why? keep marching through the dark why? keep marching, keep marching
4.
Patience growing thin with your excuses as I grow colder with these rooms fill them to the brim let's tremble closely heart towards the spring eyes to the moon Oh, it's breaking me up again slow, as the ice from the season collapses it's February in my soul when I feel the spring coming around J: And I don't want to keep myself safe if it's killing all the things that make hearts worth having and closing off the light with the dark outside is closing in my patterns to survive kick in and I've realized I won't begin without sacrificing But you shouldn't have to coax me out, I wanna be here I open my mouth and try to speak clear but no words come out, I'm locked deep inside myself With hands on ends, thoughts unclear, bring me home, I'm not here. S: I don't know how to keep myself safe and I'm sitting in this room of fear and I can't catch your eye but you're never too far gone from here your strings are woven through this heart they're keeping it from falling apart I'm here with you 'til it gets dark, then won't you take me home please? Pre chorus Chorus
5.
Alone and airborne a beast saunters in he's got the hunger in his eyes and there's no stopping him and you didn't know a thing about innocence 'til it was stolen grab hold you've got to learn to swim how long were you without oxygen? you wouldn't know, until you took another breath in You grew tall with your tales and your walls and your parallel lines and your bags and bottles crashed hard to teach you to keep rising I grew up fast I guess I grew up mean but can someone please explain to me why's it gotta hurt the most to try to grow wiser? And so you learn from a young age that everyone wants something from you, head down avoid gazes. Anything set to remind you. When you cannot recognize what's genuine, ingest these poisons just to lower your defenses for awhile. But they kill what's worth sharing in you, so fuck that. I won't stop fighting as long as I'm breathing, I will find what works if I keep believing. I remember how it felt when I said and I meant that your head on my chest makes my history hurt less.
6.
Trapped inside these vicious cycles of feeling like you've lost something you never had to start with, I know this disappointment comes naturally Storm arrives and I'm a ship in a bottle and swallowed alive, where you cannot follow 'til I arrive at the shores of myself and the light that shines out of my house Every time I arrive at this scene it seems a little bit different when I relearn the soil and the scape that I'm in you can be sure I will get lost again
7.
Tunnels 02:57
Don't know what I'm afraid of I'm afraid of not actually being a person Have I strayed so far from my own dream? Half awake pay phone calls black mold filling all the walls you got so blacked out you couldn't even crawl has anyone been sober since the fall? And I can't help but wonder if... If this is just a long dark tunnel with small flashes of light at the end. (you're doing better then you know)
8.
I feel like Montreal when I drank myself straightedge, it didn't last long and I am eight years old pouring all my dads beer right down the sink hole And swearing that I'll never be like him why am I like him? how did this happen to me? I am fucked up and worth it and all of these assholes waiting undercover with their open umbrellas can die. The taste hits my tongue and I'm fighting to pretend that I'm not back at square one and if I had known that I'd feel this way this long, would I have stayed strong? I'm sick of this Jekyll and Hyde shit who do I side with what kind of man do I wanna be I am fucked up and worth it Chorus and I am that shivering up through your spine that started this all I am that sinking deep down in your stomach that started this all I am your lungs shaking, grasping for air that started this all I am fucked up and worth it
9.
I walk through the city, three blocks home I was coming to you a pain on my wrist where she promised me she'd never back down broken glass and dreams litter the floor and I'm right back at the start and all of my time spent tilting my head above water it filled my ears so I couldn't hear you leave us to drown I took a breath and I sank down under hope the current will bring me back around A shot in the dark is better than, a shot to the face
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11.
Way back in middle school, I got suspended for handing out leaflets with anarchistic sentiment I guess it was more so cuz it used the word cunt in it but my radical inclinations were cemented then I'd go to local shows, thought that I was king shit who'd have thought that punk and anti-o are not synonymous and drinking 40's in back lanes was not resistance growing up in Winnipeg don't mean you ain't got privilege Kid in over my head, I was just a kid in over my head Then I was 18, out on the west coast the year was 2010, yeah we all know how that one goes. but there were times when I thought man, this is really it cocky smiles through bandanas and some bruised ribs But oh how they face, the bonds that we made get sick of marching and screaming til your throat bleeds you became a politician I became a little more jaded Chorus. "I can't offer encouragement unless I believe it I can't say there's a better world, unless I'm building it" What happened to that kid? with so much conviction he's doing wealths dishes inside old worlds kitchen can you feel it, The amassing rage? This fire in your stomach is made of all the times you compromised your integrity don't fucking smile at me when I want to punch your face in if I were a stronger person Chorus

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Special thanks to Magic Tom & Extra Special Dan and to everyone who has supported us in any capacity ever, thanks!

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released March 26, 2014

Recorded Feb/March 2014 at Spirit Vegetable Studios in Vancouver, BC
Mixed and mastered by Magic Tom Prilesky
Album art by Bug Cruikshank

Drums and vocals: Jaymie Gayngel Wantzabagel
Bass and vocals: Sorrel Daniel Corvid
Guitar: George "Tang" Nixon

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Filthy Liars Vancouver, British Columbia

"FILTHY LIARS are from VANCOUVER, they are a loud, messy, queer emo pop punk boy band and sound like the musical equivalent of punching a stupid bro while crying, he's crying too, everyone is crying." -Kelly Grub.

mostly trans kids making chicken soup for the teenage soul.
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